Merry ChristmAss Everyone!!

Well I hope everyone is having, or will have a fantabulous day!! Merry (and sinful) Christmas!!

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Holiday TMI Tuesday

1. What will you be celebrating? If it isn’t a commonly known holiday or celebration (i.e., Christmas, winter solstice, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa) briefly tell us about it.

We shall be celebrating Christmas. This year is my daughters 2nd Xmas so its brought more of the old excitement back to us scrooge-y adults!

2. What’s your favorite Christmas or holiday tune?

I would have to say the only Christmas themed song that I can truthfully say I like is "Fairy Tale of New York"

3. If you are giving or receiving gifts this holiday season:
- What’s the gift you most want?
- What do you think is the best gift you are giving?

SLEEP!! That is the only gift I want and need this year!!!

Hmmmm....probably either the hair crimper I'm giving my sister, or the complete box set of The Hitch-hikers Guide to the Galaxy for my husband....

4. If you could spend this December holiday season anywhere, where would that be?

Somewhere quite and cold....so lets say a deserted (except for the staff) luxury resort, surrounded by beautiful snow covered mountain... not sure of an exact location...

5. Your family has announced that the holiday celebration & get-together will be at your home. You think to yourself:

a. Yes! Finally…the more the merrier.
b. I don’t have enough room for all of you, but let’s rent a hall and you all get hotel rooms.
c. Over my dead body, I don’t want you freaks in my house.
d. Hmm…I wonder if it’s too late to book a flight to anywhere, leaving on Christmas eve?

Definitely C or D!! Blegh I couldn't think of anything worse than my house being INVADED by my family *shudders*

6. Have you ever given a fruit cake as a Christmas gift or a gift at all? Do you even like fruit cake?

I don't think I have ever given or recieved Christmas cake.... I have however cooked a super traditional Christmas cake (fruit cake, covered in marzipan, covered in royal icing and decorated) this year!! I cant wait to eat it!!!

Bonus:  Share with us one of your holiday traditions.

Hmmmm we don't really have any traditions that we do every year... the closest I can think of is going to look at peoples Christmas light shows on their houses?? Doubt we will be doing it this year though...

So Called "Purity Test'

Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is...
	Your Score:	Average For All Users	Average For All Bisexual Liberal Married Pink-Skinned 23 to 29-Year old Females (109 total)
Dating	15.38%	34.58%	17.25%	Gone steady
Self-Lovin'	39.39%	60.64%	43.37%	When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
Shamelessness	50%	77.28%	56.14%	Puts 'em on the glass
Sex Drive	54.76%	75.02%	53.6%	A fool for love, but not always
Straightness	0%	39.41%	8.34%	Knows the other body type like a map
Gayness	1.85%	77.48%	33.86%	Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
Dominant	46.67%	86.42%	70.2%	Whips people into shape
Submissive	53.97%	86.67%	64.79%	Bound and gagged a few times
Fucking Sick	76.53%	89.67%	76.02%	Refreshingly normal
Total Score	42.4%	73.55%	51.65%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 and see how you match up! (By The Ferrett)

'Tis The Season!

Mucking around with Christams tree decorations I realised that they would sit on my nipples quite happily so I just HAD to take a photo. So here is my first Christmas themed Sinful Sunday for the season!! I hope you enjoy and it puts a smile on your face! 

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Tweaked

This is a very late Sinful Sunday post! I was so excited to try these when the arrived in the mail a few weeks ago. Then one again life got in the way and they were forgotten. Finally this morning I decided to try them out. Wow do they feel amazing!! Looking forward to using them again very soon!

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Light

There isn't really any story behind this photo, I just loved the light in my old bedroom (at my parents house - I'm here cooking a massive Christmas cake!), so I thought I would take a cheeky photo for this weeks Sinful Sunday!! I love the way my skin seems to glow as the light reflects off my chest.

Come on peoples, clicky click to see what other have been up too this weekend!!

Doing as I'm told

So I had been told I needed to do a photo shoot of below my waist! Luckily my daughter was having a sleep so I quickly put my new purple lacy panties on and got set up! Afterwards I sat for a long time trying to decide whether I should post this photo, I had many others that were not so explicit (found here), but seeing as I am meant to be learning to like my more curvy/intimate areas I decided to go for it!! 

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30 Days of Kink Project

Through my blog perusal I have come across the 30 Days Of Kink Project many times (I got this one here). I have always found these questions for blog posts interesting so I finally decided to complete my own 30 days! Each day will be linked to the post as I write them.

30 Days Of Kink

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch?  What parts of BDSM interest you?  Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Day 2: List your kinks.

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks?

Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience?  If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

Day 6: Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

Day 7: What’s your favorite toy?

Day 8: Post a kinky image you find erotic.

Day 9: Post a kink related song or music video you enjoy.

Day 10: What are your hard limits?

Day 11: What are your views on the ethics of kink?

Day 12: Tell us about a humorous BDSM/kink experience you’ve had.  If you haven’t had one, talk about 

aspects of kink/BDSM you find funny.

Day 13: Explain as best you can what the appeal of kink/BDSM is to you?  Why are you drawn to what you’re drawn to?

Day 14: How would you say real life BDSM/kink varies from fantasy BDSM/kink?  If you haven’t experienced real life BDSM/kink how do you think it might differ?

Day 15: Post a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.

Day 16: What are the most difficult aspects of having a sexuality that involves kink or BDSM for you personally?

Day 17: What misconception about kinky people would you most like to clear up?

Day 18: Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves?  If so, what are they?

Day 19: Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life?  If so, what are they?

Day 20: Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.

Day 21: Favorite BDSM related book (fiction or non-fiction)

Day 22: What do you think is important in keeping a BDSM relationship healthy?  How does it differ from a vanilla relationship?

Day 23: Since you first developed an interest in kink, have your interests/perspectives changed?  How so?

Day 24: What qualities do you look for in a partner?

Day 25: How open are you about your kinks?

Day 26: What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?

Day 27: Do your non-kink interests ever find their way into your kinky activities? If so, how?

Day 28: How do you dress for kink/BDSM play?  What significance does your attire have to you?

Day 29: Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)?  What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?

Day 30: Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.

Feeling Brave

I've been feeling a little braver with my photo taking so I thought I would take advantage of the mirror in our spare room. Hope you enjoy!!

No rest for the wicked

I will set the scene. I'm at my parents house alone. My mother has taken my daughter for a walk so I can have a rest. Now do you think I can sleep?? Of course not! Inspired by a  wonderful blog post by the gorgeous Molly (found here)  I decided to take the opportunity to continue with my rehabilitation through photos (more here) towards love and acceptance towards certain body parts! This particular 'photo shoot' has definitely helped me like my arse again! 

I hope you enjoy my very first Sinful Sunday post!!!

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Beautiful Again

An interesting realization found me today after doing a quick photoshoot for my tumblr feed. I actually like me arse!! Not only that, I think it's curves are sexy and highly appealing. For some this may not seem like a massive deal but I've never really liked my rump, and after gaining baby weight, which I am struggling to lose, I have had some serious issues with various parts of me body. I'm very excited with these new feeling of approval.

Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more...

Photo courtesy of Tumblr 

I have really been struggling with so many things. I just don't know how to push through and come out the other side. Always being strong is starting to get old, never just collapsing and giving in to what's going on. I'm not sure if its doing me any good just keeping on going. I hate feeling like I need to vent and whine, even though I know its healthier in than out I just can't bare feeling of being so pathetic and lost. 

So here it is:
I struggle to see the beauty of my post-baby body.

Its not that I don't believe I am attractive to others, I just don't like what I see when I look in the mirror. I hate my stretch marks, my double chin, my thighs, the expanse of my arse, but most of all I despise my stomach. Don't get me wrong there are parts of my body I still love, I have glorious breasts, beautiful eyes, and I have learnt to adore my thick (now very long) wavy hair. I know that weight loss after pregnancy is a long and laborious process, doubly so because I had severe pre-eclampsia (HELLP syndrome) and had some serious swelling/water retention so the weight loss is made slower. I am just so sick of being patient, but I will once more be strong and pick myself up again. I am just worried that all this repression is starting to leave a serious dent in my mental state, and I hope things start getting better soon.

I miss the old me.

Forced Processing

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I am going to apologise in advance for this post. I have been mulling so many things over for the last few weeks I just need to get them out so I can process them properly.

I have been struggling with depression and an anxiety disorder for many years now. Sometimes it seems to fade into the background for months at a time, leading me to believe I have finally gotten over it all. Alas they usually return with a vengeance when I lease expect it.

I think the depression started first, it kicked in when I was about 16. At the age I had my first major betrayal when I discovered my best friend had been using me for years and never really wanted to hang out with me in the first place. Thus began the first niggles self doubt and loathing.

Now everyone has these feelings of inadequacy every now and then but mine came into full force when I started studying for my 7th grade violet exam. Previously I had always been awarded High Distinctions and so my internal voice decided to inform me that unless I continued to get this insanely high results I was a complete and utter failure. Sadly these new, more intense thoughts turned my mild teenage depression into a full blown anxiety disorder coupled with relatively extreme self harm.

Fast forward 5 or 6 years. I was now having panic/anxiety attacks every night which I coped with by self harming and abusing pain killers. There were several suicide attempts and a complete disregard for my own health and safety. I'm surprised I didn't contract any diseases or get raped. Then I met Ross, I just added him one day from a alternate social networking website, little did I know he would one day be my husband! As my online relationship progressed and became very committed I felt compelled to reveal my secret side to my mother.

She did not react in the best way, and essentially made me feel worse about what I had been doing. I begged her to help me find some help, which she did. The counseling definitely helped and has given me some great coping skills. But the depression never really left, and I still find myself reaching for a blade when I just can't seem to turn my mind off.

I don't like that I constantly berate myself, feeling like a failure when I know I have so much! It just feels like every time I am feeling much better something happens. Either of my own accidental doing or something is said by a so called friend that pulls me down lower than I was before. Why can't I win and just be content? I don't have to like myself, I would be happy with not hating. I just don't seem to be able to win, lack of sleep is definitely not helping, but it seems so hard to overcome all of this right now. I just want to feel free and not care what others think or say about/to me instead of just pretending.

For my husband and daughter I won't give up yet. Maybe the day will come soon where all will be better, when all these issues of mine will be gone for good.

A to Z of me!!

A. AGE: 26

B. BED SIZE: Queen!

C. CHORE THAT YOU HATE: Vacuuming!! I hates it with a vengeance and it makes my back ache


D. DOGS: I love them but currently we have no puppies


E. ESSENTIAL START TO YOUR DAY: A glass of water


F. FAVOURITE COLOUR: PURPLE

G. GOLD OR SILVER: Most definitely silver


H. HEIGHT: about 5'6" I think


I. INSTRUMENTS THAT YOU PLAY: I have been playing violin since I was 7! I have also played piano and double bass in the past.


J. JOB TITLE: Private violin teacher

K. KIDS: One gorgeous little girl


L. LIVE: In Sydney with my husband and daughter


M. MOTHER'S NAME: Maureen


N. NICKNAMES: Bubbles...don't ask


O. OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAYS:  not a huge amount...maybe 3 or 4


P. PET PEEVES: Incorrect use of grammar!! Also leaving empty containers around the house


Q. QUOTE FROM A MOVIE: Hello my name is Ingo Montoya, you killed my father, prepare to die...

R. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: Righty


S. SIBLINGS: One younger sister


T. TIME YOU WAKE UP: Whenever my daughter wakes me up


U. UNDERWEAR: Sometimes


V. VEGETABLE YOU HATE: Eggplant! Ew ew ew ew ew!!


W. WHAT MAKES YOU RUN LATE: My daughter


X. X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Um quite a few... at least 10


Y. YUMMY FOOD YOU MAKE: According to my husband I make 'many yummy foods'


Z. ZOO ANIMAL: Tapir!!!!

New Toys - LELO Luna Beads!

My latest purchase from [Adultshop Australia] was LELO's Luna Pleasure Bead System. I have always liked the idea of buying some form of strengthening device for my PC muscles, so after asking all my wonderful twitter friends what they recommended I bit the bullet and bought the most expensive and most beautiful pair of orgasm balls on the website. I waited with baited breath for them to arrive the next morning (woohoo Australian Express Post!). When they arrived I was in the process of driving to my parents house so sadly I couldn't try them out instantly. Feeling cheeky I decided to try them out at my parents house. I read the instructions carefully and chose the lightest set (pink), after applying a very small amount of the included lube and a bit of a wriggle they were in place. They were comfortable but I was definitely very aware of them. Then I decided to take them for a test walk about, thats when the jiggling began. Oh my goodness it is such a delightful sensation! Trying not to giggle I wandered around the garden enjoying the sunshine and subtle jiggly feeling deep inside me. Now I have to say I didn't really think I was getting much of a workout while wearing these, I will definitely be upgrading to the heavier beads (blue) next time, I did get the odd massive clench feeling but it was definitely not what I was expecting. However after I removed them (I wore them for about an hour) my PC muscles had most definitely had a very good workout! I felt the (not unpleasant) tiredness/tightness after effects for about 30-45 mins after I had removed the beads. All in all I would most definitely recommend the splurge for these very stylish, comfortable orgasm beads.

Need & Desire

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Whilst lying in bed last night my thoughts turned to sex. Well more specifically to foreplay and teasing. Now usually I'm the kinda girl that does't need much, when I'm horny I want a cock inside me straight away with minimal teasing. Since my daughter was born it has become increasingly difficult to find any time alone with my husband, let alone having enough time to actually have any foreplay before the 'main event'. This has changed my desire for being teased, now its all I can think of! I want to be tormented until I can't take it anymore, to be denied, held down, made to writhe and wriggle, feeling the need of release building and building. To be made to beg for release.

And by teasing I mean not going straight for the obvious zones (nipples, clit, pussy etc), I need someone to find all the little spots that drive me wild wanting the other more sensitive areas to be touched, to be stroked and licked and bitten. Oh god how I need to be teased, to be driven wild with lust and want! Then, made to cum over and over again with a varying collection of toys. Still making me wait to be filled with a beautiful cock, making my body scream, wanting to feel the twitching warmth inside me...

This is what I need, what I desire.

Uncooperative

Courtesy of Tumblr

So I have been 'out of commission' for some time now, well around 3 weeks to be precise. At first I was so exhausted from sleep deprivation the concept of sex was the very last thing on my mind.Then after a little longer I felt my interest start to wane, something in my mind was accepting this lack of intimacy and making me want it less and less. Since the birth of my daughter (9 1/2 months ago) I have had no drop in my libido although the instances where my husband and i had enough alone time to relieve our lust were few and far between we still managed to fit a quickie in every now and then. Until the last two months where my body has decided to be completely uncooperative and be out of action for 3 weeks at a time with a month off in the middle. These long stretches of forced abstinence have been playing havoc with my mind, never before have I been so completely uninterested in being touched then wanting it with every fibre of my being, but able to be satisfied this lust usually dissipate or turns inward to frustration and anger. This might also have something to do with the epic case of writers block I have been experiencing. Fingers crossed everything sorts itself out soon so I can be ravaged or I might loose my mind completely.

Anticipation

Me by Me

The anticipation had been driving me crazy all day. Concentrating on work while thinking of what you had planned for me had been almost impossible. Now finally I pulled into the drive, trying to keep my composure I sit for a moment and calm my breathing, resisting the urge to touch my throbbing pussy. I curse under my breath as I recall all the snippets of information you had given me over the course of my day. I had been a good girl all day, following your instructions closely and without any deviation, well all except one. Taking another deep breath I lift my hips and wriggle, with difficulty, out of my panties and skirt. Next off comes my shirt, bra and heels, now completely naked my hand instinctively goes to the delicate silver change and padlock pendant you gave me. The cold air on my skin teases my skin and increases my arousal ten-fold. 


This was it, no turning back now, I quickly look around to make sure no neighbors were in their front yards, then open the car door. Fighting the instinct to run to the front door, I step onto the cold cement and concentrate on the door, blocking out all else. Holding my head up I put one foot in front of another and after what seems like hours I finally reach the door. Steeling myself I knock tentativeness, knowing I am not allowed to enter without permission. I wait, my heart in my mouth, willing you to answer the door quickly. I hear foot steps approach, instead of making me feel at ease this only makes me more anxious. I look down at the floor as you open the door and enter quickly, walking down the hall to my fluffy mat near our bedroom door. I kneel, sitting on my heels, and clasp my hands behind my back.


He approaches, reaching down he strokes my hair which makes me whimper softly. "Good girl" I hear him say softly, I melt, looking up with tears in my eyes I smile. "Thank you sir", I manage to say as I lean my cheek against his leg, nuzzling him gently. He turns slightly and I feel his hardness against my cheek. Tilting my head I gaze lovingly at him as I slowly run my hand up him leg to the outline of his hard cock. I raise myself and nuzzle his bulge through his trousers. Still gazing up at him I unbuckle his belt then slowly unzip his trousers, letting them fall to the floor revealing his stunning manhood standing to attention. The sight of his cock makes my breath catch in my throat, licking my lips I lean in and tentively tease the very tip of his cock with my tongue. He groans, leaning back against the door jam to steady himself, his hand instinctively grabbing a handful off my hair and guiding my mouth further onto his hard cock. I relax my throat and take all of him at once, knowing that he cant handle this for long. I hold him in my throat for as long as I can, then pull back panting. I repeat, feeling him twitch in unison with his groans. Then finally, he explodes, his cum flows down my throat. I clean him then look up, his glazed yet hungry eyes make me grin. Remembering my place I sit back on my heels and clasp my hand behind my back. The anticipation of what would happen next was making my pussy ache, juices running down my thighs. Once again I try to contain my excitement by slowing my breathing. Oh dear god this anticipation was going to kill me!

As requested...

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You wait, blind folded and tied to your four-posted bed, shivering slightly with anticipation at the thought of what they had planned for the evening. The faint breeze raises goosbumps, making every inch of your tingle. Hearing footsteps approach, you inhale sharply and feel your heart rate begin to speed up. The weight shifts on the bed and you rock back and forwards as two people sit on either side of you. Cool hands gently stroke up your legs and chest and you whimper softly, you hear a chuckle and the sets of hands start zoning in on your most sensitive areas. You whimper then groan as one set of hands tweak your nipples as the other, working in small circles, get closer and closer to your now very hard cock. Your whole body aches for more, straining against your bonds, trying to manoeuvre yourself so that you get the relief you so badly need. Suddenly the hands are removed. Your mind screams. Then you feel the bed shift again as the woman sitting near your shoulder moves to where the other is sitting near your legs. You feel long hair brush your throbbing cock and hot breath on your thighs which makes every hair on your body stand on end. Nothing happens for what feels like and age, then the wondrous feeling of a tongue working its way up your inner thigh sends your mind blank. Another tongue works its way up your other thigh. Finally they reach your cock, which at this point is pouring pre-cum and twitching uncontrollably. Light kisses and licks send your mind blank, the only thought in your mind now is that of release. Every inch of your cock is shown attention, on tongue and mouth teasing the very tip of your cock and the other paying attention to the base and your balls. Suddenly the mouth that is at your tip engulfs you. You have no idea how you didn't cum instantly and your groan. Your whole body is consumed with the most incredible sensations. Some how you manage to whimper that you are about to cum. The mouth that has you engulfed doubles its efforts. You feel yourself reach the point of no return.....you finally get the release you have desired and you explode! After your body finishes twitching you feel a hand reach up and remove your blindfold. You open your eyes to see two beautiful woman kissing, sharing your cum between them. The look down at your and say, 'we will let you sleep, you need to regain your strength for round two'.

Poems

Just found an old notebook full of some poetry I wrote years go. Thought I might post some of the good ones!




Alone. Is this all I can feel? THought of you race though my head, memories of love and tenderness fade into reality.
Alone. I ache for your touch, its almost too much for me to bare.
Alone. The pain of seperation, turns to desperation at the distance that keeps us this way.
Alone. Overflowing love will keep this flame alive, then, memories turn into realities and I will be with you once more.
Alone.
-- 2004




Night at Norfolk Island


Wind whistles through the tall pines which stand on guard, watching my every move. Their arms reach out to scratch my window, trying desperately to get in.
In the distance I can hear the white ocean pound against the jagged cliffs; rain comes in blankets, drowning out all else, then fading to reveal the wind. O how it moans, seeming to speak secrets, carrying ancient voices that cry out, trying to tell me the stories of their tortured sould, wanting to be heard above the oceans roar.
--2005


Forever yours
Bound together
Sharing truths
Sharing lives


I wish that you were
With me always
My true love
One and only

Forever yours

Bound together

Sharing truths

Sharing lives

--2005

Lying here on the bed, walls closing in.

    Heart breaking. 

         Thoughts racing. 

             Darkness suffocating.

                  Pain.

                       Never ceasing.

                            Courage.

                                 Soon there will be nothing.

                                     Finally.

-- 2004

Forever together lying in each others arms breathing in harmony murmuring sweet nothings listening to natures noises shadows creating monsters on walls laughter stillness comforting closeness to safe arms sleep listening to his breath as the one you love falls gently caressing lovingly softly warmth slipping silently to sleep.

--2005